2010

404 Posts, 316 Tweets, 7 Publications

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December 30, 2010 - Lunch

Dec 30

Food Qty Calories Burrito, 1 burrito 600 Corn chips, 1 oz. 2 276 Granola Bar, 1 bar 2 240 Walk, 1 hr 0.

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December 1, 2010 - Dinner

Dec 1

Food Qty Calories Bread, healthful bagel, 1 bagel 2 220 Mayonnaise (lite), 15 ml. 20 680 Tuna fish, 1 oz.

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December 1, 2010 - Breakfast

Dec 1

Well it's 1PM, time to rise and shine. My sleep is weirdly hallucinatory; I can only think of work, babies, and food.

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November 30, 2010 - Snack

Nov 30

Food Qty Calories Bread, very heavy, 1 piece 2 200 Butter, 1 tbsp. 102 Honey, 1 tbsp.

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November 30, 2010 - Dinner

Nov 30

Food Qty Calories Beer, Coors Light 2. 7 272 Egg roll, 1 roll 200 Moo Shoo Pork, 1 serving 2 760 Spare rib tips, 1 oz.

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November 30, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 30

Food Qty Calories Chips, Pringles, one quarter-tube 210 Cracker, Peanut Butter 140 Sandwich, Turkey with a slice of cheese, etc. , est.

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November 30, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 30

I need to go to the doctor now for my followup on my allergic explosion. Last night I saw an old friend and his wife.

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November 29, 2010 - Dinner

Nov 29

Food Qty Calories Beer, Coors Light 4 408 Bicycle ride, 1 hr. -500 Pad thai, 1/2 serving 2 940 Spring roll, small, 1 roll 0.

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November 29, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 29

Food Qty Calories Sausage, chicken, 1 link 2 260 Squash, 1 c. 2 36 Vegetables, frozen, mixed, 1oz.

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November 29, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 29

The moment between the 49th and 50th deep knee bend was an intimate moment of surprising pain. I like the TV show "Dexter," wherein a serial killer kills only "bad" people, despite its many, many flaws and tortured sense of verisimilitude, because it's a hilarious take on compulsive behavior.

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November 28, 2010 - Dinner

Nov 28

Food Qty Calories Bread, Panko, Whole Wheat, 1 oz. 2 198 Carrot, 1 medium 25 Cheese, goat, 1 oz.

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November 28, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 28

Food Qty Calories Chili, Turkey, 1 c 2 480 Chips, Original Veggie Medley STRAWS, 1 oz. 130 Sandwich, panini, 1 big-assed panini 0.

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November 28, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 28

I found this old email resigning from a client gig, written when I was 22. I'd taken a full-time job and I was too swamped to meet the web needs of a cultural organization (paying maybe $15/hr all told).

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November 12, 2010 - Dinner

Nov 12

Food Qty Calories Beer, Coors Light 102 Pot pie, Chicken, [Wife]-made, 1 cup 2 760 Salad with a small amount of dressing, 1 oz.

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November 12, 2010 - Snack

Nov 12

Food Qty Calories Beer, Coors Light 102 Pringles, orange, 1 small can 0. 8 210 Soda, Diet Coke, 1 oz.

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November 12, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 12

Food Qty Calories Corn, 1 ear 2 128 Mustard, 1 tbsp. 10 Sausage, Chicken, 1 link 3 270 Sugar, 1 tsp.

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November 12, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 12

I now have all of my email in one place, searchable by word. I feel that if I'm going to return to writing the least I can do for my audience is to re-read everything I've written, and cross-reference it with emails and other correspondence, as an aid to memory so that I don't repeat myself or tread over old ground.

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November 11, 2010 - Dinner

Nov 11

Both burned-feeling we put aside Thai. Dreading my post-allergy doctor's visit next week, wherein he will yell at me for the fatness.

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November 10, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 10

Food Qty Calories Bread, whole wheat oat, 1 slice 4 360 Butter, 1 tbsp. 102 Honey, 1 tbsp.

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November 10, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 10

Yesterday evening I rode my bike merrily along until the moment when my entire body swelled up and broke out in hives. This, I thought as my tongue became a lump of steak too big for my mouth, feels wrong.

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November 9, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 9

Under the spell of a pill that she pops into her vagoo, [Wife] has transformed into [Wifebear]. She watches my napping, criticizes my fatness, scolds me until I put my foot down, until I actually plant that foot onto the floor, and say to her "enough.

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November 8, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 8

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 130 Honey, 1 tbsp. 0.

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November 8, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 8

I've decided to relaunch Ftrain and I want to do it in an informed fashion, so I've been placing all of my email into one folder. A lot of noise from lists, but tens of thousands of these are my messages.

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November 4, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 4

Food Qty Calories Cookie, Ginger Snap, 1 cookie 4 112 Sandwich, Vietnamese 557 Sorbet, Mango, 1/2 c. 2.

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November 3, 2010 - Lunch

Nov 3

Food Qty Calories Chips, Sun, 2 3/8 oz. 330 Sandwich, Subway® foot-long turkey breast 580 Soda, Diet Coke, 1 oz.

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November 3, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 3

A real breakfast now! Food Qty Calories Donut-like pastry, treat, 1 pastry 185 Pancakes, 1 pancake 4 296 Sausage, pork, 1 oz.

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November 3, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 3

So we went to vote and then for a few last cocktails and dinner. I overdid it, didn't ride my bike.

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November 2, 2010 - Snack

Nov 2

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 2 90 Sugar, 1 tsp.

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November 2, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 2

This is ultimately a story of competing desires, right? The desire to be attractive (I might better say physically compelling ) vs.

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November 1, 2010 - Dinner

Nov 1

Food Qty Calories Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 2 90 Healthful roll 100 Mayonnaise (lite), 15 ml. 2 68 Tuna fish, 1 oz.

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November 1, 2010 - Breakfast

Nov 1

More bad news, more waiting. I thought that writing a big check would get us somewhere, being the typical bourgeois that I am, but instead it has bought us only more waiting, due to follicles and the sizes of things.

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October 26, 2010 - Breakfast

Oct 26

Antidepressants, particularly the SSRIs, may be effective in treating many types of anxiety disorders. Other treatment includes benzodiazepines, such as Valium, Ativan, and Xanax alone or in combination with SSRI medication.

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October 25, 2010 - Dinner

Oct 25

Our plumbing is a mess, so no cooking. Food Qty Calories Curry pull from Thai place 3 390 Pad thai, 1/2 serving 2 940 Soda, Diet Coke, 1 oz.

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October 24, 2010 - Lunch

Oct 24

A long day of Eastern European men running snakes through the plumbing. Food Qty Calories Banana, 1 medium 90 Pretzel, 1 oz.

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October 23, 2010 - Dinner

Oct 23

Mexican! Food Qty Calories 100-calorie unit of flavor 3 300 Burrito, 1 burrito 600 Cheese, 1 Chipotle Serving 2 200 Corn chips, 1 oz.

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October 23, 2010 - Lunch

Oct 23

Food Qty Calories Bread, healthful bagel, 1 bagel 110 Mustard, 1 tbsp. 10 Sausage, Chicken, 1 link 3 270 Vegetables, Organic Foursome, 2/3 c.

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October 23, 2010 - Breakfast

Oct 23

So the big lesson here on this website is supposed to be humility . This is supposed to be my autodidact's master-class in monastic obedience.

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October 22, 2010 - Snack

Oct 22

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 35 Cracker, Wasa, Rye, 1 cracker 3 90 Mustard, 1 tbsp. 10 Olives, green, 1 oz.

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October 22, 2010 - Dinner

Oct 22

Food Qty Calories Bacon, 1 slice 46 Cider, Apple, Sweet, 8 oz. 125 Grits, uncooked, 1 c.

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October 22, 2010 - Lunch

Oct 22

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cracker, Stoned wheat thins, 2 crackers 2 4 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 2 90 Honey, 1 tbsp. 0.

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October 22, 2010 - Breakfast

Oct 22

I should have something to say here, but I don't. I feel behind on everything and I'm on my seventh day of having a cold; I'm tired of being in a fog.

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October 21, 2010 - Snack

Oct 21

Food Qty Calories Chicken, 1 oz. 3 177 Cracker, Ak-Mak, Whole Wheat, 5 crackers 0.

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October 21, 2010 - Lunch

Oct 21

Food Qty Calories Mustard, 1 tbsp. 2 20 Sausage, Chicken, 1 link 2 180 Vegetables, Harvest Hodgepodge, 3/4 c.

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October 21, 2010 - Snack

Oct 21

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Chestnuts, one bag, 100 g.

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October 13, 2010 - Breakfast

Oct 13

I offered to start updating this site once more as a birthday gift to my wife. Food Qty Calories Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup 2 160 Milk, no fat, 1 c.

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October 5, 2010 - Lunch

Oct 5

Food Qty Calories Bread, bun 2 200 Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Mayonnaise, light, 1 tbsp. 50 Tomato, cherry, 1 cherry 5 30 Tuna fish, 1 oz.

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September 16, 2010 - Dinner

Sep 16

Tonight, there was no tornado in Brooklyn. Since [Wife] is writing this and entering dinner into the database, her words are true and final.

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September 13, 2010 - Breakfast

Sep 13

A week of bad decisions and suppressed fertility despair yielding a bad, bad weight. It's hard to make vacation agree with diet, unless vacation, I suppose, is specifically fitness, but the biking was bad--dangerous, rainy, and solid hill after solid hill--and while I did some I found myself more often staying inside and doing some serious eating.

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September 3, 2010 - Breakfast

Sep 3

This image was one of four emailed to me by accident yesterday. Some 60th birthday party somewhere in the world, sent along by someone with a bad sense of email.

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September 2, 2010 - Dinner

Sep 2

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 4 180 Pecans, 1 oz.

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September 1, 2010 - Dinner

Sep 1

Scientists have long known that there is a complex relationship between sleep and dietary metabolism. Inadequate sleep results in obesity and contributes to the development of diabetes and coronary disease.

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August 31, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 31

One thing, said the counselor, is that you'll really know yourself at the end of this. There's a lot to learn.

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August 30, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 30

I said to the counselor at the clinic: I see the babies dying on Facebook and I get sad. I keep wondering why we're doing this if the babies keep dying out there.

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August 30, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 30

We awake (at 4AM) with new hopes. Perhaps the indicators from yesterday were being misread; perhaps this is a sign of that .

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August 29, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 29

Not at Subway, not foot-long, but relatively the same in deli terms. Pretzels and figs.

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August 28, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 28

Food Qty Calories Beer, 1 c. 4 384 Chicken, Peppercorn Chicken (Chinese Fried), 1 c.

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August 28, 2010 - Bicycle ride

Aug 28

I went to go buy a new keyboard and turned it into 50 miles on the bike. When I crossed over the Triborough I was overcome with panic.

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August 26, 2010 - Non-event

Aug 26

I can't remember what I ate, or why I didn't write it down. But I'm tired of letting myself off the hook.

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August 26, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 26

At home we've been talking about catnet: That's when the cats rub their musk-mouths onto shoes and bags; the bags have come in from the outside world and are filled with strange scents--sometimes even other cat-scents. Packets of molecules that indicate all sorts of things.

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August 25, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 25

I started on a bike ride and ended up eating a big bag of pretzels and some fig treats. Food Qty Calories Fig treats, 1 treat 4 320 Pizza, 1 slice 2 700 Pretzel, 1 oz.

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August 25, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 25

I'm bracing for more bad news. In the middle of it all I feel like some sort of decrepit statue, due for its centenary depigeonshitting and shinejob.

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August 24, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 24

Food Qty Calories Chicken, thigh, 1 thigh 2 220 Salad with a small amount of dressing, 1 oz. 1.

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August 24, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 24

Food Qty Calories Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup 1. 5 120 Cherry, 1 cherry 4 16 Coffee, black, 1 oz.

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August 23, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 23

Food Qty Calories Dumpling, homemade, 1 meat dumpling 10 800 Salad with a small amount of dressing, 1 oz. 1.

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August 23, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 23

Food Qty Calories Bread, whole wheat oat, 1 slice 3 270 Cheese, goat, 1 oz. 73 Cherry, 1 cherry 9 36 Mushroom and chicken pate, 4 oz.

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August 23, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 23

I have lost the trend towards trimness and am in fact returning to my pyramidal shape. Weight 314.

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August 14, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 14

After we left the clinic we walked down Broadway and decided to go to Ben Ash, a tourist trap diner, for something comforting and dinerly. Sure, an omelet is $16, but these big, stupid places are efficient and everything is hot and buttered.

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August 13, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 13

A big old pile of Indian food with friends. Food Qty Calories 1000-calorie unit of despair 1.

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August 13, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 13

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 35 Cracker, Wasa, whole wheat 50 Shrimp, 1 oz.

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August 13, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 13

It's 7:16 and I'm going to give myself until 7:20 to get moving. The coffee is perking.

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August 12, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 12

I am figuring it out again--oh, this goes in, this goes out, weight goes down, weight goes up. It's amazing how hard it is to hold on to, the knowledge of what the right action is at the right moment.

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August 11, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 11

It was all of twenty seconds. Yesterday teen girls made fun of my belly as I biked through the park.

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August 7, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 7

I spent half of this day on my bicycle; I spent the other half visiting people and eating their food. And drinking.

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August 5, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 5

Food Qty Calories Beer, 1 c. 2 192 Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cocktail, Old-fashioned, 1 cocktail 3 540 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 1.

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August 5, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 5

Food Qty Calories Beer, Amstel Light, 1 bottle 4 380 Bread, bun 2 200 Cheddar, 1 c. 0.

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August 5, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 5

So we're off for a required class on egghatching at the clinic, necessary education before we can spend the $12K for official dishsemination and implantery. Last night [Wife] shared with me a photocopied article from Self , provided to her by the support group, regarding the terrifying world of infertility—how everyone lies about it to their friends, this unmentionable disease.

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August 4, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 4

I found myself sitting up in bed doing the math on Mad Men characters and how old they would be now. The show is set 46 years ago.

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August 3, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 3

Met a guy--a media guy--for a drink at Brooklyn Social. He offered me one cigarette, hand-rolled with a filter from a tiny metal case, and I took it, and I was so overcome by guilt that it was hard to hear him talking for a minute or two.

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August 3, 2010 - Snack

Aug 3

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cheese, Parmesan, 1 c. 0.

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August 3, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 3

I need to do something about eating vegetables. Last night I was out with a divorcing friend.

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August 3, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 3

This is one of those generic horseshit photos you see a lot of where people are all like oh look shadows. I mean really who cares?

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August 2, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 2

Went out for drinks with a recently divorced friend. His life is a grind, but he's happy.

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August 2, 2010 - Lunch

Aug 2

The suit a disappointment as such things always are. Some awkwardness at the tailor's--someone had just quit.

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August 2, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 2

Sleep is usually a few hours of measured dreaming. I'm up eight or nine times a night, tossing.

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August 1, 2010 - Snack

Aug 1

Food Qty Calories Cereal, Kashi, 1 c. 120 Cranberries, dried and sweetened, 1 oz.

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August 1, 2010 - Dinner

Aug 1

Food Qty Calories 100-calorie unit of flavor 4 400 Olive oil, 1 tsp. 39 Pasta, fresh, refrigerated, 2 oz.

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August 1, 2010 - Breakfast

Aug 1

I update this site when I know I can have a good day, preferring not to document the bad ones (even though they are, in fact, much more fun than the "good" days). The idea of returning to my links of sausage fills me with a summer sadness.

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July 25, 2010 - Breakfast

Jul 25

It's a pleasure to have the new camera, and even more the RAW processor software that lets me manipulate the pixels as the camera sees them, without the interleaving of JPEG compression. There is so much information that was hidden before, and now I get to see more than I used to.

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July 23, 2010 - Breakfast

Jul 23

The blood pressure cuff reads high as a matter of course; it's always lower at the doctor's now. Inverse white coat.

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July 13, 2010 - Dinner

Jul 13

Food Qty Calories Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 2 260 Tuna salad, 1 oz.

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July 13, 2010 - Lunch

Jul 13

Back at Harper's for my traditional lunch of a BLT from Han's Evil Deli. Food Qty Calories Banana, 1 medium 2 180 Chips, All!

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July 11, 2010 - Lunch

Jul 11

Food Qty Calories Bread, naan, 1/2 serving 2 538 Curry, lamb, 1 c. 255 Saag paneer, 2 c.

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July 11, 2010 - Lunch

Jul 11

Food Qty Calories Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 1. 5 195 Grapes, 1 c.

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July 11, 2010 - Snack

Jul 11

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 0. 5 61 Grapes, 1 c.

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July 11, 2010 - Breakfast

Jul 11

Well maybe this time it'll stick if I start it up again. I've gained ten pounds from the last time I measured; 20 from my lowest.

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July 10, 2010 - Dinner

Jul 10

Food Qty Calories Chicken, General Tso's, 1 c. 450 Egg roll, 1 roll 200 Spare rib tips, 1 oz.

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July 10, 2010 - Lunch

Jul 10

Food Qty Calories Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 130 Grapes, 1 c. 62 Kaiser roll 0.

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July 1, 2010 - Snack

Jul 1

Paul just had a snack, but he measured. Food Qty Calories Cereal, Hippie flakes, yellow, 3/4 c.

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July 1, 2010 - Dinner

Jul 1

I support Paul in this, and he needs encouragement, so I'm adding dinner in for him. Send him nice notes maybe, so he remembers liking this project.

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July 1, 2010 - Lunch

Jul 1

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Mild Cheddar, 1 stick 2 140 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 4 180 Grapes, 1 c. 2 124 Tomato, cherry, 1 cherry 5 30 Turkey, 1 oz.

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June 29, 2010 - Breakfast

Jun 29

Not going to weigh myself, as the news will be bad. But [Wife] and [Friends] want me in here again, given that I've gone back to the old ways, and having quit my job of five years; started a new business (or rather four businesses in theory); started working at home.

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May 10, 2010 - Breakfast

May 10

My blood pressure is high. It reminds me of this , to which I am not about to listen, but the gist is: you only have so many heartbeats.

Articles

Just Like Heaven

By Paul Ford Apr 30 Articles

May 2010 Issue [Readings] Just like heaven Adjust by Paul Ford , This article is only available as a PDF to subscribers. Preparing PDF… Download PDF Your PDF will load here after we verify access.

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April 26, 2010 - Breakfast

Apr 26

After working for 18 straight hours on Saturday, after getting more bad news from the fertility doctor, last night this freelancer I'd hired just sort of did everything wrong. Meaning that I have a thing--a big thing--to do by Wednesday that I'd counted on someone else to do.

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April 22, 2010 - Dinner

Apr 22

I'd forgotten how nice it was when the company buys dinner for five at Momofuku Ssäm. The rice-cakes and sausage was so good it made me kind of sad.

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April 22, 2010 - Lunch

Apr 22

I'd forgotten how nice it was when the company buys lunch. Food Qty Calories Sushi, 1 pc.

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April 22, 2010 - Breakfast

Apr 22

Poor [Wife] on learning that my weight is roughly the same: bastard, she says. But you're less trim, she adds, which is true although I wouldn't exactly refer to what came before as trimness, unless I was about to go into battle on a field of crackers and cheese.

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April 21, 2010 - Dinner

Apr 21

I gave up on the mussels, much as I have done with my body, and went straight for some bread. Hard to keep it all straight when this tired; I know the only choice I have is to go to sleep and see what I can come up with by tomorrow.

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April 21, 2010 - Lunch

Apr 21

"Brain Damage," Olivia Judson, The New York Times , April 20, 2010: Whatever the causes, the implications are grave. In the United States today, around one-third of adults are obese.

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April 21, 2010 - Breakfast

Apr 21

So that was a few months right there. I moved, quit my job, started to smoke a little bit (but just soaked a pack in the sink a few days ago and put it into the trash).

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Parka

By Paul Ford Apr 20

My friend wore a green parka. She is, like I now am, self-employed, and called me this afternoon using Skype, which I can already see, a few weeks into my new career, is going to be a problem.

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April 3, 2010 - Lunch

Apr 3

I was down to return the old cable modem and end my relationship with the damnable Time Warner. Their office in Sunset Park, isolated across from Green-Wood cemetery, is a difficult place.

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April 3, 2010 - Breakfast

Apr 3

Mild flu, moderate exhaustion. I took a short bike ride last night and felt myself wobbling, exhausted; I crashed out last night at 6PM and slept 15 hours; finished that up with a nap this afternoon.

Weekly Review

Weekly Review: March 23, 2010

By Paul Ford Mar 22 Weekly Review

[Weekly Review] Weekly Review Adjust by Paul Ford , March 23, 2010 A kinkajou, 1886. After President Barack Obama promised to issue an executive order guaranteeing that federal funds will not be used for abortions, the U.

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I’m on a Panel at SxSW

By Paul Ford Mar 7

I’ll be in Austin at the interactive slice of SxSW ( Where screencasts come alive! ) for a few days starting this Wednesday.

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March 7, 2010 - Lunch

Mar 7

well that went to hell post haste Food Qty Calories 1000-calorie unit of despair 2.

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March 7, 2010 - Breakfast

Mar 7

Food Qty Calories Cereal, Kashi Sugar Cluster Bombs, 1 c. 190 Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup 1.

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March 4, 2010 - Breakfast

Mar 4

My wife paces back behind me room to room for an hour in the morning as I try to do some work before riding my bike to my job; her shoes bang against the drumlike flooring; she mentions the the cats several times, Facebook, chow-chow, flat shoes, her ankle, work, her schedule, and cauliflower. The new apartment will not be a railroad; it will have a space for me to work with an office door that closes.

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March 3, 2010 - Snack

Mar 3

Food Qty Calories Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 2 90 Healthful roll 2 200 Mayonnaise, light, 1 tbsp. 2 100 Turkey, 1 oz.

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March 3, 2010 - Breakfast

Mar 3

This project just switched back from annoying and upsetting to interesting-to-me. More in particular: I'm willing to exchange the comforts of food and indulgence for the pleasures of self-awareness and navel-gazing.

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March 2, 2010 - Dinner

Mar 2

Food Qty Calories Dumpling, Vegetable 5 150 Sashimi, 6 pc. 2 264 Sushi, 1 pc.

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March 2, 2010 - Snack

Mar 2

I'm slowly aligning myself with where I used to be. I probably won't be able to fuck it up like I have in the last few months many more times in my life.

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March 2, 2010 - Breakfast

Mar 2

In my dream I was weighed at the airport and an icon came up on the screen that said BEAR BEAR BEAR, with a bear silhouette; obviously this meant paying more. There was, I understood, some way to shrug off the bear label, if I only clicked the right combination of icons on the scale/ticketing machine.

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March 1, 2010 - Dinner

Mar 1

Food Qty Calories Biscuits, low-fat yogurt, 1 biscuit 2 316 Butter, 1 tbsp. 1.

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February 18, 2010 - Dinner

Feb 18

Food Qty Calories Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 0. 6 76 Mustard, 1 tbsp.

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February 18, 2010 - Lunch

Feb 18

Food Qty Calories Banana, 1 large 110 Candy, Reeses Miniature 2 72 Chips, Sun, 2 3/8 oz. 330 Pasta (uncooked), 1 oz.

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February 18, 2010 - Breakfast

Feb 18

We're going through co-op board review for our new rental--we're moving--and it's got our back up. "Bank account number and social security number?

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February 16, 2010 - Breakfast

Feb 16

Everything is to-do lists and checklists and situps and not smoking and not eating. Virtue is mine if I want it.

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February 8, 2010 - Lunch

Feb 8

G-- at work gives me a piece of tinfoil, wrapped like some kind of drug. "This is very small," she said.

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February 8, 2010 - Breakfast

Feb 8

So I need to backfill this website, and I need to start writing here again. When I'm truly off the rails it's almost impossible to stop the problematic behaviors until I've wrestled my emotions to the ground.

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February 7, 2010 - Dinner

Feb 7

Food Qty Calories Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup 1. 5 120 Cheese, Laughing Cow, Light, 1 triangle 2 70 Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cracker, Wasa, whole wheat 4 200 Milk, no fat, 1 c.

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February 7, 2010 - Breakfast

Feb 7

Time to start this again. I've put a calendar note in that emails me a reminder to log my food.

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February 2, 2010 - Lunch

Feb 2

That was a lot of dumplings and rum. Food Qty Calories 1000-calorie unit of despair 1.

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February 2, 2010 - Breakfast

Feb 2

I have a few seconds here before entering into a day of meetings and phone calls. I've spent the last week and yesterday planning a new act in my career, while simultaneously trying not to destroy what I've built at $DAYJOB.

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January 27, 2010 - Lunch

Jan 27

[Wife] is doing this entry because I am brokedown tired. They have stomped my brain.

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January 27, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 27

I met this dude last night that reminded me of how crap my game has become. He basically laid out all of the problems we've been going through, and with devastating clarity--and making clear to me exactly how powerless I am to help or fix anything.

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January 25, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 25

Today I learned that you dredge seasides with a trailing sucker hopper dredger. Trailing sucker hopper dredger!

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January 22, 2010 - Snack

Jan 22

I was eaty; couldn't quite get a handle on the eatiness. Kept going back to the kitchen.

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January 22, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 22

The message of The Biggest Loser and the industry built up around weight loss is that you are to lose weight in order to start living! your!

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January 21, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 21

Food Qty Calories Beans, green, 1 oz. 6 54 Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 60 Chicken, thigh, 1 thigh 110 Cracker, Trader Joes, 17 crackers 0.

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January 20, 2010 - Biggest Loser

Jan 20

The Biggest Loser , Season 9, Episode 3 Last night I went to see half of a terrible show at the Bell House (why, when you do a cover of a Bob Dylan song, would you sit on a chair and sing while looking at the floor? Why, Charlotte?

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January 20, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 20

Listening to the news from Haiti; reading about mandatory snacking for children . And going to the doctor again, right now.

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January 19, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 19

Food Qty Calories Cheese, mozzarella, light, 1 string 2 120 Cracker, Wasa, 1 cracker 45 Peas, 1 oz.

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January 19, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 19

The tree on the right looks like a rooster. I pointed this out many times while we were driving in Davis.

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January 17, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 17

Last night I took a hot bath after my 30-mile bike ride, to mitigate soreness. I am a bad stretcher so it helps.

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January 17, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 17

"Restaurant and Packaged Foods Can Have More Calories Than Nutrition Labeling Indicates" : With obesity rising markedly, reliance on the accuracy of food labeling is an important weight management strategy. Since people who are trying to reduce their weight are encouraged to choose meals labeled as "lower in calories" or "reduced-energy" in restaurants and supermarkets, it is essential that the listed data are accurate.

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January 16, 2010 - Bicycle ride

Jan 16

Up to Harlem via the Triborough; over through 126th St. , up to close to the GWB, then back down and home via the Brooklyn Bridge.

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January 14, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 14

Here we go. Food Qty Calories 1000-calorie unit of despair 3 3000 Cereal, Kashi Sugar Cluster Bombs, 1 c.

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January 12, 2010 - Biggest Loser

Jan 12

The Biggest Loser , Season 9, Episode 2 8:12 PM Just got in from a dinner of scallops with a bread pudding closer at a restaurant in Monterey, California. We were on the end of a pier and our waitress was a tweaker.

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January 11, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 11

Egg and cheese on rye bread in Berkeley, CA. Food Qty Calories 100-calorie unit of flavor 5 500 Coffee, black, 1 oz.

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Elsewhere: Just Like Heaven

By Paul Ford Jan 10

I wrote a Non-Expert for TheMorningNews. org, called “Just Like Heaven” : Question: Is there afterlife —Matt Answer: If you ever need to make your own Grand Canyon, start with a river and lift up the earth.

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January 8, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 8

At [Wife]'s mother's in Davis, CA. Why do the mashed potatoes taste so good?

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January 7, 2010 - Lunch

Jan 7

Food Qty Calories Banana, 1 medium 90 Chips, soy 140 Fig treats, 1 treat 2 160 Sandwich, BLT (light mayo), 1 sandwich 550 Soda, Diet Coke, 1 oz.

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January 7, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 7

Have to travel again tomorrow; missing working on this website (and the other websites under my supervision). Had this vision coming to work today: what if I stayed on the train and didn't get off?

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January 6, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 6

Did you know that during WWII the German army was completely out of its mind on meth? It was known as Pervitin.

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January 6, 2010 - Bicycle ride

Jan 6

Last night I took the Wmsbg. Bridge and had to route around a traffic mess, cops and yellow tape and one-lane traffic making Delancey even more hectic than usual.

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January 5, 2010 - Breakfast

Jan 5

I'm hovering in the low 290s, not making any particular progress. In my fantasies I imagine myself sitting perfectly still on the sofa for six straight days, unobserved.

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January 4, 2010 - Snack

Jan 4

Slippage slippage slippage. A friend at work said: I didn't want to read about you and the gingerbread cookie.

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January 4, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 4

Food Qty Calories Beans, black, 1/2 c. 100 Cheese, 1 Chipotle Serving 100 Corn chips, 1 oz.

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January 3, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 3

It's now 14 days later and I'm going back, filling in meals in as rough a way as possible--just trying to get the ballpark numbers in--but if I let myself I can remember them very accurately. Clam chowder--no, turkey noodle soup, and they brought a small basket of bread with crackers and I ate all of it.

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January 2, 2010 - Non-event

Jan 2

Backfilling the site and having trouble remembering this day, and too lazy to reconstruct it. So let's just put 3K in and call it in.

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January 1, 2010 - Dinner

Jan 1

Filling this out a few weeks later: Chicken florentine stuffed with spinach at the Daisy Diner, with some soup. And cheesecake.

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January 1, 2010 - Lunch

Jan 1

Food Qty Calories Mustard, 1 tbsp. 2 20 Orange, 1 small 45 Sausage, chicken with apple, 1 link 3 480 Vegetables, Organic Foursome, 2/3 c.