I have a few seconds here before entering into a day of meetings and phone calls. I've spent the last week and yesterday planning a new act in my career, while simultaneously trying not to destroy what I've built at $DAYJOB. Meetings, phone calls, people doing stuff.
A lot of stuff lately is just purely about power. And I keep seeing a major contrast in how my nerd friends manage power vs. how old media dudes manage power. I'll write on more of this later.
For a while now, for many reasons--fear, [Wife]'s fear, loyalty, and fear, I've been avoiding the fact that I've been spinning around. And by spinning, of course, I was able to lose 80 lbs. and focus on myself.
That's the important thing, then: to find a way to keep my calm and keep healthy, but also renew my focus. And to find joys--not fears and anxieties--in my projects. Life is short and you're a long time dead. Yes, I might have to make some changes in the near future, but if I make an effort to maintain the relationships and goodwill I've built, and keep trying to help people--it will work out. Good must triumph.
Thought about you not wanting to do a Long Island ride. I thought about you needing the ride to hurt for some reason... You are getting in better shape. This means you can enjoy things you haven't been able to without it being daunting or painful. Biking around in the countryside, at your own pace, past farms and beaches, is one of those things. Although it may sound like another day of exercise, it could just be another good day in your life, where your weight no longer matters. A chance to enjoy your success in a healthy way.
| Food | Qty | Calories |
|---|---|---|
| Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup | 3 | 240 |
| Milk, no fat, 1 c. | 90 | |
| Total | 330 |
Weight: 290.25 lbs