The moment between the 49th and 50th deep knee bend was an intimate moment of surprising pain.
I like the TV show "Dexter," wherein a serial killer kills only "bad" people, despite its many, many flaws and tortured sense of verisimilitude, because it's a hilarious take on compulsive behavior. There have been many addiction narratives on television. "The Wire," or "Sherrybaby," or "The Biggest Loser." But Dexter is the one that shows addiction in all of its compulsive glory, the fully aware quality of self-destruction, and his comfort and relief as he plunges the knife in to kill--the squick of it--is the moment we're all waiting to see. Other shows hector us about addiction; the Wire gave us real-life heroin addict Steve Earle earnestly holding forth on the steps necessary to recovery--but "Dexter" makes us complicit in his illness. We want him to kill.
I feel like an addict now, but of course we're talking cereal and milk, not killing.
| Food | Qty | Calories |
|---|---|---|
| Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup | 1.5 | 120 |
| Deep knee bends, 1 | 50 | 0 |
| Milk, no fat, 1 c. | 0.5 | 45 |
| Total | 165 |
Weight: 317 lbs