This is ultimately a story of competing desires, right? The desire to be attractive (I might better say physically compelling) vs. the desire for the immediate comfort. And of course to be healthy, to be less anxious and free of fears. I feel though, that any kind of desire is bad; have always felt that way. That wanting things is somehow shameful. I keep listening to podcasts of stand-up comedians and you hear this thread over and over; these are people who are bad at managing their needs and wants, and yet need the approval of hundreds or thousands of people to feel accepted. It's basically the worst possible exchange.
| Food | Qty | Calories |
|---|---|---|
| Cereal, Kashi, 1 c. | 120 | |
| Cereal, fibrous, 2/3 cup | 1.5 | 120 |
| Milk, no fat, 1 c. | 90 | |
| Total | 330 |
Weight: 316 lbs