July 11, 2011 - Breakfast

Up in the morning and down to the gym. This is the worst part of anything, in some ways. When I'm messing up and exhausted and drinking and gaining weight I am able to use those things to settle. When I am healthy I am capable of distance. But in-between is pure death-fear. I realize that this is what raising two children will be: Helping them see the world and themselves in it. So they don't grab at things and smash them, or cut themselves. [Wife] is 30 weeks pregnant. Or 60 weeks, since it's twins. I think I might need a full-time job.