One thing the shrink said, in so many words, was: You can't just flip a switch and return to a moment of control and happiness. You have to do the work again. I went to the shrink because it makes sense to not have a life of slowly grinding it out. Most of all, I should just get my fucking work done, sign off, and go onward. So that's that. I want to return to the moments of high organization and happiness, instead of bursting out of my pants and wondering how it's all going to come together.
I bossed the shrink. I kept going, here. We'll do 15 sessions and then go down to once a month. $175 for 40 minutes, I need policies, structure, organization, flowcharts. I should get PowerPoints. Graffle that shit.
I may make a different suggestion, said the shrink. But for now take an Omega-3. I like the liquid one if you don't mind the fish smell.
I don't mind, I said. My wife does.
And so I shoot it onto the spoon.
| Food | Qty | Calories |
|---|---|---|
| Beer, Coors Light | 102 | |
| Cereal, Hippie flakes, yellow, 3/4 c. | 2.7 | 320 |
| Milk, no fat, 1 c. | 90 | |
| Total | 512 |