Loops
Not the most connected to my body. The piano is an attempt to remedy part of that. I'm trying to set up a working feedback loop: Fingers to keys; keys to sound; sound to ears; ears to brain; brain to fingers. Getting to anything like flow is very hard unless I'm going slow, slow. Pile up three notes on the staff and I come to a full halt. Not a lot of flow state in my life, by which I think people mean loops. It's very command and control in here. It doesn't work. The body tends to reject the brain after a while, out of resentment. Trying to orchestrate a self out of an assembly of fractious grumblers.