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Sunday, March 11, 2001
By Paul Ford
2 intervals from 11 Mar 2001 (Beet Gospels)
I read an interview with Shane McGowan, but with his girlfriend as well, and she said, "I have a fame addiction." And she once had an affair with Van Morrison. Jesus.
In any case, she sympathises with addiction because she
suffers it herself - she has a mild addiction to food and
a major addiction to fame, and has had therapy for
both. But now she plans to cure her fame addiction by
hiring herself a publicist - she thinks probably Matthew
Freud - to make her famous so she can get it out of her
system. 'Because it's one of those things, like with
heroin - you've got to try it before you can decide that
you're going to give it up.'
But doesn't this fame obsession make her relationship with
Shane a bit suspect? Doesn't he worry that she might leave
him for someone more famous? 'I've already done
that. [Apparently she had an affair with Van Morrison.]
We've been through it, we've had the affairs, we've had
the breakups, we've had the nervous breakdowns. But with
me it didn't last - the connection was never strong enough
with anyone else - so it must be that I actually genuinely
like him more than anyone else. And also we did meet
before he was famous.'
What a strange thing, to be compulsed towards fame as a sexual object. And yet, perhaps it's what everyone is doing. Moths to the flame.
All of us want to be rock stars. (True? Not true?) To be important, to be listened to, to be interviewed on subjects of which we are completely ignorant.
Being dishonest about that is foolish, but dealing with the fact that you aren't a rock star forces you to appreciate the exact non-rock-star qualities of yourself.
I want to re-introduce Octave 6, the first beautiful child born from the machines, into Ftrain. Scott is by far my favorite character, but there are other people in the site, hidden under pseudonyms and aliases.